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Friday, July 6th, 2007

Subject:I'm drowning in a Whiskey River
Time:4:18 pm.
Mood: amused.






Sickest tattoo ever!!!!!!!
Zombies ftw!!!!!!!








Also, I can't get enough of this song.
Spent on Rainy Days by Bright Eyes:

I wish I saved up for rainy days cause they're the hardest to be dry
I got no self control
I'm always begging into telephones
I bought a little from my brother's friend, well, just to get me by
I don't trust his cut
The effect is never as high as the mark-up
I think I'll print it in the personals that I'm looking for a match
Someone to light me up, someone to burn the proof of the things that I've done
Each day there are hours I skip like a stone
I just crawl in a bag
I'm gonna live my life like somebody's shadow

I know I'm lazy with the little things, I mean I never held a door
But I still loved you more than anyone since or before
You are always saying that I owe you one, well, let's consolidate this debt
Get on a payment plan, I'll pay you compliments, you can still treat me bad
But now it's easy, getting easier, to leave you and this town behind
I'll do some traveling
Once I'm gone tell all our friends you got even
I'm held like an object and then set aside
And I'm back on the shelf, I'm locked in the drawer
I'm mint in the box, but you would still sell me for cost, wouldn't you?

I'll be anything... the cord of a parachute... the blanket on top of you...
The window you are looking through... the cord of a parachute
[x]Mind Games[x]

Monday, July 2nd, 2007

Subject:Can't get enough
Time:2:12 pm.

SOMETHING IS MISSING AND I WISH I COULD FIGURE OUT WHAT IT IS.

Can you feel your heartbeat racing?
Can you taste the fear in her sweat?
You've done this wrong
It's too far gone
These sheets tell of regret
I admit that I'm just a fool for you
I am just a fool for you

Here is where we both go wrong
Tonight's your last chance to
Do exactly what you want to
And this could be my night
This is what makes me feel alive
Makes you feel alive
Here is where we both go wrong
So sign me up
And toss this key
'Cause for now we're
Living in this moment
And we both ignore the truth
Its all over
Its all over

I feel your heart against mine
So take a breath and close your eyes

[x]1 Outsmarted You - Mind Games[x]

Monday, June 18th, 2007

Subject:whatever helps you sleep at night
Time:1:20 pm.
Mood: pissed off.
"Maybe
I need somebody that could save me
From the parts of myself that keep making me crazy
And if I was a wise man
I'd climb to the top of the mountain peak
To think about strength versus weakness
I'd find a point that rests a couple of feet above your head
And figure out how I could try to help you reach it
And if I did have a choice
I'd never want to live forever
Just let me have a voice so I can make my points
I can't imagine running a race with no finish line
Just let me keep my pace and make to most of my time
I love giving but I'm bad at receiving
The truth is, I'd prefer to be the one bleeding
But I'm a paranoid that stays between play and work
Cautious and aware, 'cause I'm afraid of being hurt
Which brings me to the issue
And that would be this:
How often must I ask myself why I exist?
I feel like a freak, this world is a circus
Just trying to find myself as well as my purpose"
[x]Mind Games[x]

Tuesday, June 5th, 2007

Time:8:24 pm.
Mood: annoyed.
It's pretty sad that you have to die for people to actually show how much they appreciate you and suddenly everyone was your best friend. People are so fucking fake.
[x]Mind Games[x]

Monday, June 4th, 2007

Subject:All for you
Time:1:54 am.
Mood: gloomy.
I can't sleep anymore.
Sometimes I question life.
Sometimes I try my hardest to not think at all.
Recent events have made me feel so selfish.
I'd like the weather to clear up so I can go to the beach some night soon.
Does anyone even use LiveJournal anymore? No.
[x]1 Outsmarted You - Mind Games[x]

Friday, June 1st, 2007

Subject:In your mind is where I'll plant my seed
Time:6:04 pm.
Mood: energetic.

I was reading some of my old journal entries and I think I figured out the problem. My problem.They say girls "marry their fathers". It means they marry a guy that shares the same characteristics as her father. I used to be attracted to my complete opposite. Someone wreckless and outspoken. I still am but I'm scaring myself because lately I feel like I'm thinking like a 40-year-old woman does. He's nice but..he doesn't have any goals. He's sweet but..he still lives with his parents and he's 24. 
Yikes. I think..I'm bitter.
So I get called a lesbian because I am drunk and I'm not slutty.
Relationships are about taking risks but I'm all done with that. You get burned when you take risks. I've given up so much of myself to make something work. I don't want to compromise anymore. I am following my mind, not my heart. If I want to take a risk, I'll go skydiving.
I'm single and I'm okay. I wish 2 of my greatest friends weren't countless miles away.
Guys that play guitars or are in bands are fucking ridiculous.
I have a feeling whatever is going to make me happy won't be found in this state.
My wonderful and amazing best friend is getting married in a little over 2 weeks. Oh.My.God.
I want to meet someone who will write a song or poem about me. Actually, I want to be someone's muse.
I'm a little scatter-brained when I drink coffee.
I'm a horrible planner and I never answer my phone. Love it or leave it!



"'You take someone's breath away,' I stressed. 'You rob them of the ability to utter a single word.' I tipped the neck of the empty liquor bottle toward him. 'You steal a heart' "

[x]Mind Games[x]

Tuesday, May 1st, 2007

Subject:Broken
Time:12:34 am.
Mood: restless.
I think I hate "emo" music so much because it just gets me down. If I'm sad, why would I want to listen to someone singing about how sad they are, you know? I like listening to it though because it reminds me that someone else feels like shit too. How reassuring.
I think I've watched too many movies and read too many books because I compare my whole life to a movie. It takes the fun out of everything. Just one of the many bad habits I should do away with.
I'm questioning school.
I'm questioning life.
I'm questioning people.
Was anyone taught "The Golden Rule" growing up? Do unto others as you'd want them to do to you. Something like that. That was drilled into my head as a child and I firmly believe in that. I wish everyone felt the same. Espcially with name calling and rumor spreading. Come on.
This is what happens when I can't fall asleep.
I want to meet people who make music, not just copy and paste it.

"These pills aren't working anymore
My guts are spilling out onto the floor
Of a nightmare you wouldn't believe
Of a nightmare you could not conceive of

You're floating above my head
There are words carved in my chest
And they said...
"Could somebody show me the kind of affection
That you only see in the movies, you know what I mean"

I will suck the elixir from your fingertips
Until I feel my head start caving in
My mouth will overflow with your evil soul
And I'll be convulsing for days in this hole
Bubbling at the lips that you used to love to kiss
Well, I think I'm trying to wake up, but I can't

These pills aren't working anymore
My eyes are gouged out and rolling under the door
It blacks out the
Nightmare you wouldn't believe
A nightmare you could not conceive of

You're floating above my head
There are words carved in my chest
And they said...
"Could somebody show me the kind of affection
That you only see in the movies, you know what I mean, you know what I mean"

I will suck the elixir from your fingertips
Until I feel my head start caving in
My mouth will overflow with your evil soul
And I'll be convulsing for days in this hole
Bubbling at the lips

I know you never meant to do everything you put me through
It's okay I forgive you
Just know that when you see me cringe sometimes
I'm trying to rid the poison from my mind

I know you never meant to do everything you put me through
It's okay I forgive you
Just know that when you see me cringe sometimes
I'm trying to rid the poison from my mind

I will suck the elixir from your fingertips
Until I feel my head start caving in
My mouth will overflow with your evil soul
And I'll be convulsing for days in this hole"



Goodnight
[x]2 Outsmarted You - Mind Games[x]

Sunday, April 22nd, 2007

Time:6:56 pm.
Mood: okay.

pro·jec·tion

a.the tendency to ascribe to another person feelings, thoughts, or attitudes present in oneself, or to regard external reality as embodying such feelings, thoughts, etc., in some way.
b.Psychoanalysis. such an ascription relieving the ego of a sense of guilt or other intolerable feeling.



Anyways, I'm done with school in 5 weeks. What to do..
[x]Mind Games[x]

Tuesday, January 9th, 2007

Subject:I like Bright Eyes. Get over it.
Time:6:39 pm.
Mood: frustrated.

and there is nothing more i want than just one night
that's free of doubt and sadness
one night that i can really feel.

[x]2 Outsmarted You - Mind Games[x]

Tuesday, September 19th, 2006

Time:7:02 pm.
So love me gently with a chainsaw
and take the glass against your wrist
You know I am your worst nightmare
Oh how you love my bloody kiss


But it's time to die
You're worth more dead


Tell me your fantasies
I'll make you believe
That I really care
I'll look into your eyes
I'll tell you all my lies
As I take you slow
[x]Mind Games[x]

Saturday, April 24th, 2004

Time:4:58 pm.
Mood: worried.



Comment to be added or nothing.
[x]18 Outsmarted You - Mind Games[x]

Thursday, April 22nd, 2004

Subject:Life eh?
Time:11:11 pm.
Mood: depressed.
My name is Sarah Ann Viger. I am 17 years young. I have no brothers or sisters. I have a hamster named Charlie and a dog named Blondie. I am a cutter. I smoke Marijuana but I am not a stoner. I am quiet sometimes. Maybe too much. My parents are very sheltering and really don't know me at all. I met Brian McNamara and listened to Green Day and my life changed forever in 8th grade. I have no idea what I want to do when I gradute from high school. I really enjoy having friends. I lack motivation..terribly. I am an extremely jealous person. I am a capricorn. I just ripped a large piece of skin off of my finger again (I do that a lot). I twirl my hair constantly. I love books. I am very self concious. I am very simple..jeans, hoodie, t-shirt and shoes make me happy. I have a wide taste in music. I <3 Colleen and Kelsey (you guys are the absolute best). I'm an average student. I love to eat. I dont have small hands! Thats me.


I just want to be HAPPY
[x]3 Outsmarted You - Mind Games[x]

Wednesday, April 21st, 2004

Time:11:52 pm.
Mood: confused.
Awww..he's doing his sexy pose ;)Collapse )
[x]Mind Games[x]

Time:12:36 pm.
Mood: hopeful.
So I was thinking about becoming a mindless blob. Apparently I shouldnt have emotions because they're suuuch a pain in the ass. Oh whatever.

Cocaine..im going to miss you..but we still have a few days to still hang out and remember, i'm always going to be here for you and i'll be waiting for your return. I couldnt ask for a better best friend.
[x]Mind Games[x]

Tuesday, April 20th, 2004

Time:3:27 pm.
Mood: hopeful.



Happy 4/20 folks!
[x]Mind Games[x]

Subject:Like..for sure!!
Time:1:46 pm.
Mood: amused.

"I said they were going to lose, and they lost. The Bruins lost. I think they played pathetically in games 3-6. I think Raycroft was amazing in the first game and then worn out in all of the rest. I am blaming him for their loss tonight. If he had seen the puck, instead of thinking it was under him, he would have stopped the only goal. Yes the Canadiens won 2-0 but they scored an empty-net goal in the last like 5 seconds so that doesn't count. But that was the perfect way to end my fcuking perfect day. Tomorrow I get to have my wisdom teeth taken out. OH YEAH! HANSON'S NEW CD COMES OUT TOMORROW!!! Yeah! Bitches! And I'm buying it. I'm all excited! So that will be the highlight of tomorrow. I guess. I don't know. Have to wait til tomorrow. Oh so I feel so bad for the Bruins. Losing like that. They were ahead in the series 3-1 and they just stopped right there. They played like shit, even Raycroft. I think Jose Theodore, the Canadiens goalie, needs to get most of the credit. He was awesome from game 4 on. And he got his first play-off shut-out. So good job Theo. But I'm disappointed. :( But I can't wait until next season! Raycroft will DEFINITELY be around again. I read some article and he said he was living out of his car and hotels. ;*( I'll let you stay with me Andrew! ;) lmao. So I'm done with the Bruins for now.... Sadly... I'm getting kind of nervous for tomorrow. I don't know why. My teeth are all screwed up right now so I really want these teeth out! Like my bottom teeth have all moved so they're overlapping and it hurts and feels weird and looks bad. So I'm hoping my teeth will go back to normal when my wisdom teeth are out. Did I mention the girl my dentist told me about yet? She had the same problems with her wisdom teeth as me and got her's out and DIDN'T swell. So I'm hoping I won't either... lmao Knowing my luck I'll swell like twice the normal size. So I think I'm off to go draw some more. More Taylor Hanson... I'm in love with that man... Oh wow, I should show you the weirdest picture I found of him. Wearing a POT LEAF sweater! LMAO! How cute is that? Ahh!! I'll do that later. So let's seeeeeeeee... I think that about does it! Check you later! ~Punkie~ "

 

I owe some thanks to someone in this world that I didnt end up like that.

[x]1 Outsmarted You - Mind Games[x]

Monday, April 19th, 2004

Subject:Mystery
Time:8:52 pm.
Mood: crazy.
I sit here and I twirl twirl twirl. This is who I am. It's what i'm good at. Too bad it couldn't have been like..math or cooking or something. No..its twirling my hair. I wonder why I do it. It makes my fingertips feel nice. I wonder if it bothers anyone. Im such a dumb ass.


This is me.
[x]1 Outsmarted You - Mind Games[x]

Subject:Baaaah
Time:1:13 am.
Mood: scared.

We run, we jump, we swim and play
We row and go on trips
But the things that last forever are our dear friendships.
Camp Anawanna, we hold you in our hearts
And when we think about you
It makes me wanna fart!
--"It's 'I hope we never part'
Now get it right or pay the price!"

Now we will share a lifetime of the fondest memories
By the lake of Anawanna
Set in the old pine trees

Camp Anawanna, we hold you in our hearts
And when we think about you
(This thing came apart)

Think Anawanna
Speak Anawanna
Live Anawanna -- Ugh!

 

The good old days.

[x]2 Outsmarted You - Mind Games[x]

Saturday, April 17th, 2004

Time:12:15 am.
Waiting for the Mail Man..Collapse )
[x]Mind Games[x]

Thursday, April 15th, 2004

Subject:Me?
Time:3:05 pm.
Mood: hopeful.
SimilarMinds.com Compatibility Test

you are 88% similar
you are 75% complementary

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[x]Mind Games[x]

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